A week on

We started the log today - and you woke at 5.45am. You counted on your bed for a bit, and repeated something from a TV show. I went and got you, and you seemed to be carrying on from where you left off yesterday. Cold to Mummy in bed, irritated by the TV not doing what you wanted, wanting the lift and to change channels. Lots of whingeing and stamping. You said 'coev li' and asked for Acamoli. Me and Mummy looked at each other and wondered whether you really had pain. You asked twice, so we gave you it. Maybe it was your teeth, though lots of things I read link autism to a weak stomach. I think I'm reading too much into it. You chewed the syringe on your back gums. Must have been gum ache.

We went to the doctors to get advice on the blood and urine tests. I also requested one for mercury, since I read that DAN suspect that autism is triggered by high levels of metals that can't be absorbed. I also got an extra couple of tests to see if you are deficient in Vitamin B6 and Magnesium. You were really irritable all the way to Mummy's work, but when you said goodbye, and had a little cry when you called out for her, you behaved we'l. You saked to go to the playground so we went and had a run around for half an hour. You were very happy, and calmed down a lot after that. It's lovely to see you laugh, and chase me. You waved goodbye to th playground and came without any protest.

I sent Ifat an sms today.

I read an article about the Gluten Free Casein Free diet today that said that all the research into it fails to show any effect. I was trying to work out whether it is a good thing, the theory that it can't do any harm sort of sounds right, except for - as Ifat said today - Ben will have enough things to be stressed about, he will be hungry and will want food that we will be stopping him from eating. It seems a valid point, we have enough trouble with food as it is. But Ifat is a psychologist. So she thinks like a psychologist. I'm a parent, and as I've said, I have a different agenda to her.

I need to spend less time blogging, and more time working out what to do. It has helped enormously with the pain and shock, but I've got a huge job in hand, and I'm going to find out exactly what that job is. I'll be back.